I want to reach that land farthest.

I want to wander on that land farthest.

All watered mirages of this heart,

All palaces built with sand,

I want to reach that land farthest.

Seeing thru’ eyes of mind,

Fluttering wings of hands,

I want to reach that land farthest.

To receive gift of education,

To give treasure of knowledge,

I want to reach that land farthest.

To enjoy life,

To remove layer of Maya,

I want to reach that land farthest.

Departing from all that were in heart,

With drops of heart from beloved,

I want to reach that land farthest.

O my aunt-land,

I left behind mother for your love.

I am here to explore your womb.

I am here to reap riches.

Please, do not make me cry a lot.

Please, do not remove memories of dear ones.

Let me have memories of my sweetheart,

Accept me at your lotus feet, please.

Left path on seeing KADAMB,
Waving water witnessing,
KRUSHNA reached YAMUNAA.
How could he miss this front?

Cheering river sprinkled flowers.
Lord lost pearls flowing from eyes.
Merry groups played where,
GOPAL lived in their hearts.
Sweet gazes and lovely RAAS dances –
Created amazing union of RADHA and KRUSHNA.

Unknown flute touched lips,
Lord relayed age old symphony.
Uncanny tunes arose there.
Hidden cries poured then.
MOHAN searched companion with that sound.
All went in vain and grew glimpses in heart.

Alone RADHA shied with emotions,
Amazed, woke up, left the bed.
How could she find beloved in Gokul?
Rushed to bank of YAMUNA then.
Orphaned one saw master there.
Could not stop weeping seeing Lord.
Aroused lots of hard questions all,
RADHA insisted answers crying.

“KANHA, why do you like punishment?
This YOGIN does not know at all.”

“O my life, I always keep my words.
How can I be traitor with love in heart?
I love our nation - BHARAT.
Always think I remedy of national issues.
Never I forgot the promises made.”

“Deserted flute and friends all,
Enjoy songs and urban games now?”

“Never I found listeners like Gokul,
No groups there, no YAMUNA there,
No innocent games in city.”

“O friend, cows graze at GOVARDHAN.
That herd sigh missing you always.”

“O RADHIKA, I remember always.
Grazed unseen cows virtually.
All questioned me uttering DACH.
Wavering mind, hardened breathing.”

“Groups gathered for dances, RASESH.
Unknown wet moon withered sadly.
Without Master, boys forgot dances.”

“Stopped all joys without friends.
Who do I flirt with, RADHA?
How can I dance without your company?”

“Master, forgot this beloved too?”

Pain cried with this question,
Shouted MURALIDHAR utterly.
Wife frightened listening this noise.
Was hubby feared? Why? At this time?

This is DWARIKA. GOKUL farher.
MURARI, meet RADHA in dreams only.
Beloved tied to your words.
Sent remembrance every moment.
You forgot all the promises.
Face this persicution in old age.

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Note: The original poem in Gujarati was written long time back. Please, find it here @ http://rutmandal.info/swaranjali/2009/08/14/samvaad/ I finished this English translation on Valentine’s day. This is my dedication to eternal love of RADHA and KRUSHNA.

प्राणाहुति praaNaahuti:
आहुति aahuti (Oblation) with First finger, Middle finger and Thumb
क्षुधाग्नि kshudhaagni with golden complexion as ऋषि rushi
आदित्य aaditya (Sun) as देवता devataa (God)
गायत्री gaayatri as छन्द chhanda (metre, verse)
मन्त्र mantra (chant): ॐ प्राणाय स्वाहा ॥ इदमादित्यदेवाय न मम ॥
OM praaNaaya svaahaa | idamaadityadevaaya na mama | (OM, offering praaNa. This is for Sun, not for me. )

अपान  apaana:
आहुति aahuti (Oblation) with Middle finger, Third finger and Thumb
श्वेताग्नि shvetaagni with White complexion as ऋषि rushi
सोम soma (Moon) as देवता devataa (God)
उष्णिह् uShNih as छन्द chhanda (metre, verse)
मन्त्र mantra (chant): ॐ अपानाय स्वाहा ॥ इदं सोमाय न मम ॥
OM apaanaaya svaahaa | idam somaaya na mama | (OM, offering apaana. This is for Moon, not for me.)

व्यान  vyaana:
आहुति aahuti (Oblation) with Third finger, Last finger and Thumb
हुताशन hutaashana with Lotus complexion as ऋषि rushi
अग्नि agni (Fire) as देवता devataa (God)
अनुष्टुप् anuShTup as छन्द chhanda (metre, verse)
मन्त्र mantra (chant): ॐ व्यानाय स्वाहा ॥ इदमग्नये न मम ॥
OM vyaanaaya svaahaa | idamagnaye na mama | (OM, offering vyaana. This is for Fire, not for me.)

उदान  udaana:
आहुति aahuti (Oblation) with First finger, Last finger and Thumb
अग्नि agni with Earthworm like complexion as ऋषि rushi
वायु vaayu (Air) as देवता devataa (God)
बृहती bruhati as छन्द chhanda (metre, verse)
मन्त्र mantra (chant): ॐ उदानाय स्वाहा ॥ इदं वायवे न मम ॥
OM udaanaaya svaahaa | idam vaayave na mama | (OM, offering udaana. This is for Air, not for me.)

समान samaana:
आहुति aahuti (Oblation) with all five fingers
विरूपक् viroopak with lightening complexion as ऋषि rushi
पर्जन्य parjanya (Rain) as देवता devataa (God)
पङ्क्ति pankti as छन्द chhanda (metre, verse)
मन्त्र mantra (chant): ॐ समानाय स्वाहा ॥ इदं पर्जन्याय न मम ॥
OM samaanaaya svaahaa | idam parjanyaaya na mama | (OM, offering samaana. This is for Rain, not for me.)

Sixth आहुति aahuti (Oblation):
आहुति aahuti (Oblation) with all five fingers
वैश्वानर महान अग्नि vaishvaanara mahaana agni (Great Digestion Fire) as ऋषि rushi
परमात्मा paramaatmaa (Lord of Lords) as देवता devataa (God)
गायत्री gaayatri as छन्द chhanda (metre, verse)
मन्त्र mantra (chant): ॐ ब्रह्मणे स्वाहा ॥ इदं परमात्मने न मम ॥
OM brahmaNe svaahaa | idam paramaatmane na mama | (OM, offering great fire. This is for Lord of Lords, not for me.)

Person who does these six offerings everyday is eligible to be like ब्रह्म brahman. Here, all the five praaNa (special bodily forces) such as praaNa, udaana, vyaana, apaana, samaana are considered as being offered to Mother Kundalini.

(Taken from ShriDeviBhagavatam 12th skandha 22nd adhyaaya and stanza 25 thru’ 41)

(Gujarati translation @ http://rutmandal.info/parimiti/2010/02/06/pranagnihotr/)

Covered whole world in white sheet,
Did not descriminate at all now.
Lush green soil, arid river bank,
Bald-green trees, barren open lands,
Man maid rubble also unseen,
Clouds were missed in the sky too.
Up above azure sky, marble on ground,
No difference in color, no quarrel anymore.
Sun smiled looming over stage,
Sky cried roaring and handful.
Month of winter shivering,
And white snow beheaded all.
Music evolved in frozen loneliness,
New spring just ringed the bell.

Whenever Christmas is in vicinity, we tend to think of Jesus, Mother Mary, Christmas Star, Bible, Carols, Santa Cluase… Ever wondered about Christmas Star - white, bright, twinkling in the East at dawn when Jesus was born? (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Star_of_Bethlehem)

It is said that three wise men (magi) from east came to the place where Jesus was born and they seemed to follow the bright star in the East of the morning sky. That star alerted them of the birth of some saint or king or messiah!

For almost two millenia, curious people around the globe tried to find that star - Christmas Star. Some thoght that it was a comet. But, in old times, comet thought to have brought ill omen and evil things. So, it could not be a comet. Some believe that the star could be bright as it was an exploding star. Chinese people used to keep track of some visible events in the sky for almost 3000 years. They did not mention any significant event occurring around 2000 years ago. So, some believed that the brightest objects for us - Moon, Venus, Jupiter might have some role to play here.

When we read history, it becomes clear that magi (pronounced MEJAAYI) were the people who used to observe sky and to note astronomical event. They were from Babylon and they were influenced by Indian Astrology at that time. Per that, it is believed (even today) that when Jupiter and Moon are in vicinity, person born with that planetory union, s/he has leadership qualities and is immensely fortunate. It is known as GAJA-KESARI YOGA (elephant-lion union).

Also, some archeologists found coins dating back to 2000 years which have a backward looking mare inscribed one side and Zeus (Greek God - Jupiter) on the other side. This triggered some fusion in some researchers mind. And they found out that in April 17, 6 BCE, Moon and Jupiter were in Aries constellation (zodiac sign) and they appeared in the morning sky in East direction! This union of Jupiter and Moon was such great that Moon actually eclipsed Jupiter. What a scene it would be!

So, we can conclude that Christmas Star was in face a union of Jupiter and Moon. Also, Jesus was born on April 17, 6 BCE. You have all reasons to oppose these conclusions as they are not universally accepted!

Merry Christmas!

(Orignal Gujarati article @ http://rutmandal.info/parimiti/2009/12/23/naataal/)

Breeze was felt and a butterfly flew in garden of love,
Resting in the womb of a red rose, he paused a while.
He imbibed nectar and eased thirst from births.
Ocean of love roared in heart with joy.

Fate turned ill and forest caught in conflagration.
Lover being became unpleasant with ill-thoughts.
He gathered all might and heaved beloved.
Jumping, skipping, bouncing, flying ran away soon.
Fatigued being fell on ground with beloved.
He bathed in flames of the fire,
And beloved also dried floating pollens around.

Rain poured the ground after a while.
New life sprouted from the pollens of beloved.
And lover’s ash nourished those with smiles.

(Original Gujarati poem @ http://rutmandal.info/swaranjali/2009/11/06/patangiyu/)

By the GREAT Dr. ABDUL KALAM

I remember my dad teaching me the power of language at a very young age. Not only did my dad understand that specific words affect our mental pictures, but he understood words are a powerful programming factor in lifelong success.
One particularly interesting event occurred when I was eight. As a kid, I was always climbing trees, poles, and literally hanging around upside down from the rafters of our lake house. So, it came to no surprise for my dad to find me at the top of a 30-foot tree swinging back and forth. My little eight-year-old brain didn’t realize the tree could break or I could get hurt. I just thought it was fun to be up so high.

My older cousin, Tammy, was also in the same tree. She was hanging on the first big limb, about ten feet below me. Tammy’s mother also noticed us at the exact time my dad did. About that time a huge gust of wind came over the tree. I could hear the leaves start to rattle and the tree begin to sway. I remember my dad’s voice over the wind yell, “Bart, Hold on tightly.” So I did. The next thing I know, I heard Tammy screaming at the top of her lungs, laying flat on the ground. She had fallen out of the tree.
I scampered down the tree to safety. My dad later told me why she fell and I did not. Apparently, when Tammy’s mother felt the gust of wind, she yelled out, “Tammy, don’t fall!” And Tammy did. fall.

My dad then explained to me that the mind has a very difficult time processing a negative image. In fact, people who rely on internal pictures cannot see a negative at all. In order for Tammy to process the command of not falling, her nine-year-old brain had to first imagine falling, then try to tell the brain not to do what it just imagined. Whereas, my eight-year-old brain instantly had an internal image of me hanging on tightly.
This concept is especially useful when you are attempting to break a habit or set a goal. You can’t visualize not doing something. The only way to properly visualize not doing something is to actually find a word for what you want to do and visualize that. For example, when I was thirteen years old, I played for my junior high school football team. I tried so hard to be good, but I just couldn’t get it together at that age. I remember hearing the words run through my head as I was running out for a pass, “Don’t drop it!” Naturally, I dropped the ball.

My coaches were not skilled enough to teach us proper “self-talk.” They just thought some kids could catch and others couldn’t. I’ll never make it pro, but I’m now a pretty good Sunday afternoon football player, because all my internal dialogue is positive and encourages me to win. I wish my dad had coached me playing football instead of just climbing trees. I might have had a longer football career.

Here is a very easy demonstration to teach your kids and your friends the power of a toxic vocabulary. Ask them to hold a pen or pencil. Hand it to them. Now, follow my instructions carefully. Say to them, “Okay, try to drop the pencil.” Observe what they do.
Most people release their hands and watch the pencil hit the floor. You respond, “You weren’t paying attention. I said TRY to drop the pencil. Now please do it again.” Most people then pick up the pencil and pretend to be in excruciating pain while their hand tries but fails to drop the pencil.

The point is made.
If you tell your brain you will “give it a try,” you are actually telling your brain to fail. I have a “no try” rule in my house and with everyone I interact with. Either people will do it or they won’t. Either they will be at the party or they won’t. I’m brutal when people attempt to lie to me by using the word try. Do they think I don’t know they are really telegraphing to the world they have no intention of doing it but they want me to give them brownie points for pretended effort? You will never hear the words “I’ll try” come out of my mouth unless I’m teaching this concept in a seminar.

If you “try” and do something, your unconscious mind has permission not to succeed. If I truly can’t make a decision I will tell the truth. “Sorry John. I’m not sure if I will be at your party or not. I’ve got an outstanding commitment. If that falls through, I will be here. Otherwise, I will not. Thanks for the invite.”
People respect honesty. So remove the word “try” from your vocabulary.

My dad also told me that psychologists claim it takes seventeen positive statements to offset one negative statement. I have no idea if it is true, but the logic holds true. It might take up to seventeen compliments to offset the emotional damage of one harsh criticism.
These are concepts that are especially useful when raising children.

Ask yourself how many compliments you give yourself daily versus how many criticisms. Heck, I know you are talking to yourself all day long. We all have internal voices that give us direction.
So, are you giving yourself the 17:1 ratio or are you shortchanging yourself with toxic self-talk like, ” I’m fat. Nobody will like me. I’ll try this diet. I’m not good enough. I’m so stupid. I’m broke, etc. etc.”
If our parents can set a lifetime of programming with one wrong statement, imagine the kind of programming you are doing on a daily basis with your own internal dialogue.
Here is a list of Toxic Vocabulary words.
Notice when you or other people use them.
Ø But: Negates any words that are stated before it.
Ø Try: Presupposes failure.
Ø If: Presupposes that you may not.
Ø Might: It does nothing definite. It leaves options for your listener..
Ø Would Have: Past tense that draws attention to things that didn’t actually happen.
Ø Should Have: Past tense that draws attention to things that didn’t actually happen (and implies guilt.)
Ø Could Have: Past tense that draws attention to things that didn’t actually happen but the person tries to take credit as if it did happen.
Ø Can’t/Don’t: These words force the listener to focus on exactly the opposite of what you want. This is a classic mistake that parents and coaches make without knowing the damage of this linguistic error.
Examples:
Toxic phrase: “Don’t drop the ball!”
Likely result: Drops the ball
Better language: “Catch the ball!”
Toxic phrase: “You shouldn’t watch so much television.”
Likely result: Watches more television.
Better language: “I read too much television makes people stupid. You might find yourself turning that TV off and picking up one of those books more often!”
Exercise:
Take a moment to write down all the phrases you use on a daily basis or any Toxic self-talk that you have noticed yourself using. Write these phrases down so you will begin to catch yourself as they occur and change them.

Love has red color. Sleepless was I, applied it in my eyes.
Orange sun rose in dreams. I was wet in blue ocean.
Would it drizzle in reality, I would believe in true red color.
In heart, departing fired. Whole life burnt in every moment.
Expectation arose white glittering. It covered the truth.
Heart breaking departation was such a killer that
I danced in dreams of reunion.

(Original Gujarati poem @ http://rutmandal.info/swaranjali/2009/09/30/pal/)